No matter how hard you try, you cannot escape it. None of us can.
Everywhere you go there is a voice telling who you should be. How you should act. How you should think.
I have experienced this myself. I spent most of my life trying to fit into what I felt like the world needed me to be. I was so focused on taking care of everyone else and making them happy, I lost sight of what I wanted.
It can be so easy to get so caught up in trying to make everyone happy that you forget to do what makes you happy. It doesn’t have to be like that, though.
I came to a realization a few months ago, thanks to a program called LifeRecon that mom suggested I do.
I am the way that I am because the world needs me the way that I am, not the way they think I need to be. There is nothing wrong with me, just different. Those differences make me who I am.
That was a powerful realization that changed the way I looked at things. It also reminded me a bit of a conversation I had my senior year in high school.
I was in AP English Literature and we were studying The Lovesong of J Alfred Prufrock. We read through it, analyzing as we went until we all understood what it meant. The poem itself is centered around a simple yet complex question.
Do I dare disturb the universe?
The person in the poem ultimately decides not to, and so our teacher asked us what our answer was. That sparked an interesting discussion that a classmate and I ended up dominating.
She was of the opinion that we are all so tiny that we are almost insignificant in comparison to the rest of the universe. So why bother? What is the point?
That struck a chord with me and I could not stay silent. I had one question for her.
I see no reason to believe that we are too small to change anything. If it only takes one match to start a wildfire, one shot to start a war, imagine the impact a single person can have.
We have seen it happen time and time again where a single person has stood up and changed the course of history. Whether it was for good or for ill, we can still feel the impact of their actions today.
The thing is, there were a lot of little moments that went into these big, world-changing events. Small, seemingly insignificant, everyday details without which none of this would have happened.
Sometimes the tiniest interaction can have the biggest impact on down the line.
That is what I chose to believe. That I can make a difference. That I have the power to change the world. That the little things I do every day can make a difference.
Even if I’m wrong, I would much rather look back on my life and know that I tried than sit there wondering what might have happened if I did.
That is why I am creating a podcast called Disturb the Universe. I want to help people realize that they are capable of far more than they think they are. I want to give people the courage to chase their dreams. I want to help people learn to love themselves and love their lives.
You don’t have to cure cancer or end world hunger to make a difference. Sometimes it is as simple as bringing a smile to someone’s face. There is a lot more good in this world than we realize.
Are you ready to disturb the universe?